first off, i really think we aint gon end up on terms.
so, for one last time,i wanna be heard its up to u to believe me. well, u never believed in me anyway but i just wanna step up.just try to believe in me. it wont hurt.
"i know u were never sorry at all when u said dat apology.- i know it's a very BOLD move for u to take. u admit ur mistakes and try to reach out. but it's NEVER been easy for us to figure out if it's genuinely legit.if it's sincere, y u still keep on
bashing me and my gf after dat? we never ACCEPTED nor REJECTED ur apology. we just sit there and shake our heads if we were really readin it ryt.u cant blame us if we're gonna doubt the sincerity of it.
-"u can go back window shoppin for sum forums and blogs for u to rip and put in ur blogs like u took da credit" .if wer're bitter, u'r a BITER.u bite somebody's else's work.ever heard of plagiarism?" -- yeah this is hella funny indeed. you were hilarious on this part.seriously.it's not that its NONE of my biznez but i want u to go back to your archives and proof read. i know much of it are disses to my gf and me. impliedly or abstractly.u were on a blog fight at that time and u didnt even thnk that u'r bein UNFAIR. while chinggay is squeezin da remaining juices on her goldfish brain, u were out there with david billington who's givin you a huge help cuttin sum of his material on his site.if u researched, we did my homework too.. most of 'em are cumin from different blogs,forums and even myspace page.that's wut make it funny. 'cause u were just absolutely rippin off.it's like lypsinchin on a singing contest. a rapper gettin a ghost writer.u get all da credit. u can be just fair.but drop it.i dun care if u rip but just dont use it to DISS. cause most of the time, it's out of context.it's so obvious u didnt wrote it. as wut u've said, it's none of my biznez.it's just a piece of advice. u cant be a good writer if u always do dat.just do real pieces. it's rewarding if u made people read it. and feels good also if u know that u really wrote it.
"dat u didnt asked me to re
consider everything now that ur dad cant go with u.u know wut we talked
bout dat night. u want extreme lazy boi but m not biting it.then i just
asked u to lemme know wut bus ya'll be in and i'll go wit u even with
him or not. u texted me that afternoon."extreme junior" kami."-- yes, u said no but i didnt said yes either. maybe i made pilit but i never intended to do it dat way. i said, u can even ask the messenger cause he booked the trip for me. u know my first choice is lazy boi and or double but i ended up on da same bus with ya'll anyway. but as u can see, it's not just you two that i know on dat bus.when we were on a bus stop, u ate together while i'm with another group, wit jeff and baldo and his gf.so it's never really planned that we ALL were on da same bus. but we bothe pretty much know that we tried to be on da same bus.but hell, it's over we never have to argue bout this, i've been mistaken as boks already and that's the tragic part bout this bus ride anyway.
"you know everythin between us is over."- u were just the first one who put it into PRINT.i told myself that night i asked u to whack off.and when i say "over"even the so-called friendship's included. i'm just reminding you.and i know that u REALLY are HAPPY.u dun have to reiterate.
this is pretty much way over due but i think u've got to know bt this.it's really my intention not to talk to you or text or even reach out for u.that night i told u to WHACK OFF. but u got angry. i never understand that but i am determined to turn my back.and throw everythng away.i DETACHED myself from everything that is connected 2 u.and im proud to say that i've been successful bout dat. it has been two months since we last talked.i walked away,deleted u from everything. but u still keep on viewing our page.u even used bumpy knuckles to view our page. we eneded up thinkin dat u wanna sneak and know the latest buzz.yes, we felt bein oozied. cause after i told u to stop, i pulled out da plug already.not even look at ur frs account.not even readin ur blogs.but wut'd u do? u keep on swingin.baby swings turned into major swings.it never really stopped anyway.i never received the YM off line you are sayin. my YM is in auto connect maybe when somebody connected to the net, it popped but never reached me. u cuda sent me a message on frs just like wut u did with chinggay.maybe i read it.
u never understood my silence. u been trash talkin all over the net bt me and trading barbs with my gf but i reamained mum.cause i promised to myself dat i will never ever talk to you again. not even write anything about u in the net. look at my july archives, none of em are for u. and m happy to say that none of em are inspired by u.i stayed true to my word not til u were on a rampage.most of the entries are for us. i know.that "best liar award goes to", i know its for me and i think its just right for me to accept it cause honestly, m really a liar.well, that's da first tym that u inspired me to write sumthin bout u.even chinggay never written whole entry for u this july. well, except for the fcku entry. of course u'll think dat it's for u.if u gon look back, the ratio is like, 1:3. u have more diss entries than us combined for a month.just look at ur bitter entries,u made a lot of em that it sounds redundant already. da "pang-aning" and everything that is in your blogs. it just became interesting when your lil dirty tricks were exposed.that's why i wrote bout it. take note, it's just for the second time after a long tym that u been jabbin us.and then u dropped the bomb. i know from that time i have to speak up. i have to come out of my bubble and stand for this. u had the ropes,but i didnt lie, it's just those things that i never mentioned to her and tha pretty much made it as a lie.i told her evrythng already it's just that i miss some of da parts that we are still talkin. u got ur archived YM convos but sadly i dont.if only phone calls have logs, maybe i can refer to it. what m sayin is, I DIDNT LIED ALL THE WAY. i just decided to keep it UNSAID. i never DENIED anythng to her.it's just dat i didnt tell her evrything all at once.but the fuck'd up thing is that she has to know it from u.i know u know that. i felt bad. real bad. i never thought u were gonna spit it out i mean, what protection are u talkin about when it's u that's been pushin us all the time? we rarely speak, we rarely react cause i dont see the point of gettin back. i know u were itchin. one move from us means it'll diffuse and eventually drop it. where is da provocation? did i spilled out anythng that is supposed to be just the two of us would know? u know our conversations, u know tha talks, and from wut i wrote, i can never see anythin in there trhat is enough to be considered as a bombshell. where's the threat? what are u protectin from urself into? u dun wanna be ridiculed? we never mocked ur apology, we never spoke bout it, we never wrote anythin bout it.if u realized tht everything that my gf wrote is not for u, u cuda been silent. cause after u apologized, u still went out there and went on a blog rampage when in the first place, we never said anythin bout the apology.u can even review our blogs. the only thing that i think made u pull da trigger is when u'r exposed with your lil net skills. and u went below the belt already. the deaf quasimodo thing is enuff for me to say "FOUL" but i never reacted. i never declared infamy against ur forehead.not because i'm afraid but i know there are still limits even when in war.and i always believe that coller heads would prevail.
i hope i defined myself in there.
u made the first move to say sorry and apologize.and m makin the next step to end this. diffuse the flame and just STOP everything.u know that it has got to stop somewhere and sometime. but there's no better time that now.if u really want me to be happy, just close da door and leave.i'll do da bunny hop 25 steps forward to keep me away.i know u dun want none of this either.this is just too much.i know u can wake up in the morning and go sit infront of ur notebook and not even a bit think about us.cause it's the only highway that is connecting us all.i know u can do it.cause after this i am goin back to my own lil utopia and pick up everything that is left off.i swear to god i'll never talk bout this anymore. this would be the last tym that u gon hear it from me. even chinggay too.if it's the end of volume 1, hopefully volume 2 begins with us waaaayy apart from each other.i am even prayin to god that your mom would go get u already and take u to a place where animals talk because at least, ur out of the country,out of everything and nuthin is sweeter than enjoyin a stress-free life. bein away is a lil less shadowy.i aint gon mention bout the board again. it's god willing. i told u, i still wish the opposite u know that m just crackin over there.just prove me wrong.how sad that this cud end this way. but it have to.
i am expecting an end to this.
this is the last buzzer.
the last nail
the last chicharon in da bag.
cause after this, i still have to re group and save whatever that is left.
i know u'll understand everything eventually.and hopefully u learned the lesson even if its the hard way.
i dun demand for respect,i dont need it. i just want freedom from everything.
just let us be us.
and let me fade to black.
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